#67

I pray that something picks me up, and sets me down, in your warm arms.
Yeah, I'm thinking it's happening again, he's going off with her again... Though I did text him just friends, I guess I'll be ok... :/.
Just went for dinner in London, had some really nice sushi/ sashemi/ tempura. So good!
Grrr. New years tomorrow.

#66

She said she want's whatever she likes.

#65

I like where we are, here.
Lolll, I don't. Xmas was average :)

#64

Isn't he lovely, isn't he wonderful?
Lol I laaav Stevie Wonder, he is inspirational :'). 
Okay right. I kinda realized I've been breaking out recently in spots, maybe it's the new foundation... I don't exactly wear much, or very often for that matter.
But I definitely need to drink more, that always helps right? So I have a pint of water with me here right now! Not such a good idea, it's two hours till christmas, I'm going to be waking up all night peeing! (Sorry it had to be said...)
Another myth I've heard about is putting sudocream at night? Sounds good, I'll have to get some and try it :). 
So basically for me >>
More water
Keep healthy
Lots of fruit/veg still!
Sudocream? 
No greasy food


So generally healthier? But I guess I'm pretty healthy anyways ^^
Almost finished my pint! :P

#63

The words on the street and its on the news, I'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you.
Couldn't find the burgundy one I wanted, so I bought the blue one... :)

#62

If only, you tried you would move on.

Well, that was wierd. I don't feel the same as I used to, but the same emotions fill me when I see him. It's odd...  
Westfields tomorrow, it's going to be so depressing! Without being able to spend money >.>

#61

When I see you walking with her, I have to cover my eyes. Every time you leave with her, something inside me dies.
Im going to tell you about my trypophobia. 

'Fear of holes or clusters of holes. May also include clusters of similar shapes and indentions'

I'm not joking, it's disgusting. I literally looked it up on google, and all these pictures came up, I totally freaked...
And now I have goosebumps, everywhere. I can't describe how horrible this feeling is >.> 

#60

Win me back with a look of affection.
Lizzie: You can write my blog for me today if you like ;)
Jade : just say how jade missed you and ellie because yo decided to bunk school
Haha! We didn't bunk, we just didn't want to walk through the snow... :D

Oh well, officially the holidays today!! WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO 

#59

If you wanna live life loud throw your hands up
If you wanna scream and shout lemme hear you
Takin' all the fakers out if you're with me
Everybody work it, just keep living.
Oops, its Wednesday. Interthouse was cancelled :|. I was so looking forward to that. I have 24 detailed x-mas cards to write before Friday? Dear me. The new i-pod had a video camera. Ha. £115.
I really wanna find a cute guy who loves piano as much as me, wouldn't that be amazing?

#58

I know you lie,
I trust you all the same,
I don't know why.
I'm angry.
I'm doubting whether love is real. 

#57

Le Demarche <3
What I did, I did for the best, I really don't want to ever get hurt again, I'm not gonna risk falling for you. 

#56

I reach towards the sky, I've said my goodbyes, my heart's always with you know.
Right. When people are like 'OMGGG I've done so bad in this test!!' It really pisses me off, because most of the time, they are perfect people who have never got under 70% in a test. It like really puts me down? Because after a test if I go, 'I did SO bad!' I genuinely think that, or even KNOW I did really badly; aka didn't have a clue what to write. Whereas the other person knows deep down that they did fine, they just don't want to put their hopes up. It reminds me of when we had our big maths test... I was like to someone 'GRR I DID SHITE, I BET I GOT UNDER 50%' And so the bet began, and I won. Haha, I got 30% . Yeah, I fail at trig. 
I'm always confused haha, just saw pictures, facebook, confused me... How do they all know eachother... Yet she blanks me, and she helped me through so much.... :/ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

#55

My minds gone blank and my brains are scattered all over all over.
Sometimes I see people talk about me, like evidently... You know, they look 'casually' with their friend then say something. Why the fuck is that? I wish I could read minds... 
He's so, so hot. But it will never ever ever ever happen. Unless I move to Ireland maybe. I'll do that one day.
I shall visit Manchester, to see mates, then I will go to Ireland, to steal him. And on the way I'm going to visit Wales, to pontprydd.  To see Ian.

#54

It makes us uncomfortable still holding on when there's all this doubt, hovering.
I had something really interesting to say that I thought about while I walked home and now I can't think of it... 
Seeing all these stunning girls on this site, I am nothing compared to them. How ugly this makes me feel... Loosing and self confidence. This is what makes me.

You always said that we'd make it through :|

#53

I really fucked it up this time, didn't I my dear...

#52

Hope it gives you hell, I do.


Click here to go to my new flickr, most recent photography...
 This weekend was a complete complete waste, so stupid.

#51

Someday I'll show you a world that shines in the light.
I love deathnote, the film :). It's probably one of the best Asian movies of all time yes. It's where this guy who's like one of the bets students in Japan finds this notebook' 'deathnote' which the god of death has dropped into the human world.

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Who's ever name Light(the guy) writes in this notebook, they die. He works out how to control all these deaths, then becomes carried away and has killed most of Japan's criminals within five days. 

This film is actually amazing and it's also a series, which is just the film in series, just in anime whereas the film is mostly just reality. 

Today was so so boring. Babysitting was cancelled, fuck fuck fuckedy fuck, life's not fair. I want a party,NOW please. 

My Christmas list is so long, here are some ideas of things I put on it!

• Makeup, lots of it! I listed things like eyelash primer(Estee Lauder) and lots of mascaras including max factor false lash effect, and l'oreal telescopic, two of my favourite mascaras. And lots more makeup, and many brushes.
• Clothes, clothes and more clothes! The SD Bar hoodie from superdry, £54.99 , yes, I know, how depressing :/ This gorgeous longsleeved top from hollister in burgundy, I actually lovelovelove it, so much, shown above!
• Money!
• Just random stuff :D

 Goodnight(s).

#50

Our love was lost, but now, we've found it.
I hope so. I really really do.

James' birthday today :)

#49

Next time you point a finger, I'll point it to the mirror. 
Should I just keep my mouth shut forever, never say anything? I don't think humans have the ability to keep a small secret. how selfish.